MusicLuvs

2008-12-26T00:51:00.000+08:00

Merry Xmas and Happy New 2009 to those I know..............

2008-12-24T01:04:00.002+08:00

I know i shld believe u, but sometimes its really difficult when i cant see in my own eyes. U cant really blame mi.

I always believe if i see it. I know my aim now is to keep u and the rest alive.

My sis's condition is not improving. Damn.

This year, there might not be any celebration.

2008-12-01T01:07:00.002+08:00

Sometimes watching u so pain , makes me feel damn sorry for u.

I don know whats the future behold, but I do wan to be happy.

I feel I getting older, and thats a fact. No deny on that.

2008-11-11T00:42:00.002+08:00

Seeing her body aching and her 2 young children sometimes pain my heart. My only wish is for her to get better.

With her faltering limbs ,, .sometimes one do wonder is this all fated?

2008-11-08T16:58:00.002+08:00

What if this watching angel of yours 1 day just cant take care of u anymore? lol. What if I an devil instead? lol ... Maybe u nid someone to take care of you..

Angels and Devils....... What is morally right and what is wrong.

It all separates by a thin line...

2008-10-17T01:16:00.002+08:00

There are so many thoughts in my mind , yet, I can't put it down to words. lol. As always.

Gd luck to u always.

If one day u will believe and I wish I believe, will u happen to believe that God actually told mi to help u to tide over. Maybe, all along, what I wanted is to just sit down on the beach, u and me , silently watching the waves.

Maybe, that's is what I want, all along. Nothing much and nothing less. Maybe, that's my reward once everything is back to normal.

2008-10-05T22:03:00.002+08:00

Everything wrangles abt $, nowadays. I'm in deep shit. I can't foot my car loan bills, credit card. I dowan dangle the prospects of borrowing, but there is no one to help. haiz. Everytime I ask, i only get scolding. The current credit crunch does'nt seem to help. My dad only know how to ask, the miserly salary doesnt seem to able to satisfy the bills and I still owe mum household. lol. I still owe my sis.

Next mth bill is like rolling over. This month salary is just sufficient for repaying some.I like to take risks. but somehow I can't control myself. Its like a magnet, pulling me in . I get annoyed easily nowadays.

Fault lies in mi. I overspend, dangle in risks 2 much. It seems 1 yr ago, I was able to have no worries about all this. Now, savings are dwindled to the minimal. Really minimal. People expect mi to be self-sufficient, but in reality I know its not. Control yourself...
Wat is happening to mi? I changed.....

2008-08-30T17:18:00.003+08:00

You such a nice and soft-hearted gal. Even though their words cut your heart like a knife , u still love them.

Your words may say so but inside u are not thinking that way.

Wonder if u really exist. Will we be fated but not be together?

2008-08-16T23:58:00.002+08:00

Things are not rosy at the moment. I just need plenty of luck ....Lots of...

When will things turn to a better?

2008-08-01T21:55:00.002+08:00

I got a problem. Addiction. zzz. I better control myself.

I think my sis's health is failing. There is a saying that say "You might be rich but if you don't had health, its nothing to u." Also, If u are poor, even you had health, its useless to u" How ironic these 2 sentences mean

I wish my sis can recover faster. Everytime, I see her so painful, my heart sinks.

Health is definitely important.

2008-07-27T23:42:00.002+08:00

There was once, many times, we used to sit down on this makan place aftr jogging after Tues.

Everytime, about 8-9 pm, the place will be crowded. Once or while, an old man or old lady will appear with a bag selling tissues. 3 packs of tissues for $2 or $1 , I can't remember.

Sometimes, I will buy. sometimes I will just stared at people, wondering if they will pause what they are doing and buy from this pathetic old man or lady. I got this guy colleague, quite a kind guy. He will buy. Sometimes or often, I don remember.

Sometimes its not a bad thing at all. You grown up a lot. xD

2008-07-26T00:40:00.002+08:00

If u happening to read this. I don understand yr leftover msg. lol.

Anyway, there's still Mon if u know what I mean. Don forget I bruce. lol.

U shld know I can work miracles for u. Haha.

I learnt quite a bit of Emotional Intelligence for the past 2 days. Haha, Will describe all this in detail later on. Its some experience which u can never learn in your work. I glad I attend this course. It really brings out yr own personality.

2008-07-17T23:03:00.002+08:00

I wonder am I protecting u too much or should I start let u realize the cruelty of life. Will it cause u more harm in the future...

lol. Sometimes it is so hard a decision...

If God can let mi knw....whether what I do is rite or wrong..

2008-07-17T00:45:00.002+08:00

Some decisions are really hard to make....

Wish my ankle or veins watever getting better.

Anyway, going for a short trip soon. Needs relax a bit. My hair isnt improving a bit.damn.

Everything is so difficult nowadays....Saw a tv series but I forgot wat the morale alrdy.sux.

Memory fading. lol... Everything rising..

2008-07-14T13:22:00.000+08:00

Some people never learn.........

2008-07-14T00:14:00.001+08:00

SOrry. I didnt know my actions could cause so much complications. If only I didnt

You did warned mi. ........ Now, what should I do?

2008-07-11T12:57:00.000+08:00

Music can really open one soul.

ATB - Collides with beauty

And I know

You know

It should be me

That's holding you

And I know that pride

Collides with beauty

And I know

You know

It should be me

That's touching you

And I know that pride

Collides with beauty

I'm upside down

And inside out

The room's not big enough

I'm waiting for your love

Been waiting for your love

Gone round and round

Half falling down

The floor's not flat enough

I'm waiting for your love

Been waiting for your love

Chorus:

And I know

You know

It should be me

That's holding you

And I know that pride

Collides with beauty

And I know

You know

It should be me

That's holding you

And I know that pride

Collides with beauty

And I know

You know

It should be me

That's loving you

And I know that pride

Collides with beauty

It's too much

It's not enough

The walls can't hold me up

I'm waiting for your love

Been waiting for your love

I'm back and forth

And forth and back

The window's fogging up

I'm waiting for your love

Been waiting for your love

2008-07-10T23:34:00.002+08:00

It rained again this morning. So cooling and nice for the weather...

Make a calcuation on my finance. Need to pay a total of $1742.40 this month end.

That really sux. Another 3 more months I be debt-free. lol.

I really need to attend wealth-management course.

2008-07-08T12:42:00.000+08:00

It rained this morning. so nice n cooling to the weary mind. xD

2008-06-25T00:48:00.006+08:00

Sometimes I do wonder why I always on yr brunt of anger. Haiz. Is it u start to take mi for granted..... DO u REALLY meant what u said................

Do u treat yr like tat also... Hadnt I done enough or is I not there , tats why u making fun of mi all this while.....U making my life so so damn..difficult.. Alrdy I so troubled...

Maybe Its time for mi to find some peaceful place to ponder closely.... Why cant u make mi happy everytime...or why cant u be like the rest.....

Maybe its true, U don understand me at all. Or whatever I said, turn to deaf ears. lol. Really sux.

"If u dowan to eat, thats yr decision" Rite....U never will change...

2008-06-23T10:56:00.001+08:00

Sometimes. I do wish to just stone and gaze the sky, watching aimlessly at the sky. Sometimes I do wonder what should I start with.

Is it just Mon blues or things are not rite and I just running it everyday. lol.

2008-06-18T22:54:00.003+08:00

Somehow. I got the feeling the days will get harder for u....

Things will worsen , as US economy drops to recession.

2008-06-17T22:32:00.003+08:00

Pretty screwed up. Work-wise. I can see the dangers all coming out. lol.

If only I can see what u doing or see u in real person or even understand u. I wouldnt had doubt u at all. All this seems blur at the moment...really blur.

Blur and confused. ...

iS THIS ALL a facade or is this real....Are u real at the 1st place... Do i trust u 2 much? o.o

2008-06-16T02:08:00.002+08:00

I know I shouldnt do it but somehow, God wants mi to help u. Please give me a sign.

2008-06-13T13:01:00.001+08:00

So many things in my mind. negative... lol..

I admit I'm lost but who can I seek.....

I need a day's of rest......

2008-06-13T09:12:00.002+08:00

Actually I admit I'm a smart guy. I know what my boss is planning all along. I know I just running from all these, each day. I know the futre is fixed. My ex-colleague knows that. Thats y he ran away. lol.

Its either sooner or later.

Sometimes I don't understand why people don stand in my shoes. Do I look like an ATM, spinning out $. lol. My dad is like that, my mum, hmm ok, yr dad. lol. They really think I can produce miracles. lol.

All these is getting mi so restless. Everything is so screwed up. lol. ALL these stuff I been thinking isnt really getting mi nowhere. Really, seriously, I nid to take some action.

2 weeks more and I'm gone. Hopefully.

Wish everything can work in my way, I just wish . I nid plenty of $. =.=

2008-06-09T10:01:00.002+08:00

2008-06-08T00:57:00.002+08:00

I hadnt been blogging much. lol. I knw tat. A bit lost here and there. lol. Trying to seek answers the past week. Like a battlefield. ASking qns here and there. lol.

Work is like a battlefield. Tats wat I know. U come in fully battle-order else u be littered with bullets. lol.

Haiz....Shall I wait or shall i wait for yr end. That large sum of $ end of the yr sometimes is so so so ....tempting. Can pay for your ....lol....till end of year. hahaha..

I sometimes confused abt tat. Life is really tough. Full of stupid decisions to make...I know I shouldnt stay there for long.. cos there wont be future there. I know tat. Once somethings are replaced..I ha to restart all over again. I shouldnt cheat myself about tat.. but no-one to really advised me. I really hope to get a much better-appreciated environment or am I just not content enough. Haiz... x=D

Hope u .....

2008-06-04T00:24:00.002+08:00

Hmm. u so weird u knw. I don knw whether u joking or wat. Really strange. so weird. hahaha

U probably the 1st gal who wan such request. Really weird.

I a procrastinator too. hahaha.Sian. I got to leave this place asap. hahaha

Weirdo. Hmm, I think u still don know mi well enough. hahaha. Maybe u dont at all.

2008-06-01T04:32:00.002+08:00

Its been such a long yr since I stayed up so late.lol.

Going slp. maybe tmr nid to go zoo. lol.

Glad u enjy. lol. Dont thank mi. U deserved it. lol

I was a bit hmm. lol. nm

2008-05-26T23:45:00.001+08:00

Recently I been immersed in this song.

Artist: Schiller

Song: Sleepy Storm Feat Jette Von Roth

Album: Tag Und Nacht 2005

On the way with bow and arrow try to find this thing to shoot be on the hunt with bow and arrow it's a very different trip dangerous but necessary yes i know
the ice is too thin to walk on yes i know
the path too narrow to walk on sleepy storm where is your beating heart today hey sleepy storm would i choose to walk or stay on my way with bow and arrow to be on the safe side until i lost sight of the land far into the night be on the hunt with bow and arrow with bow and arrow shall i find your hiding place yes i know
the ice is too thin i walk on yes i know
the path too narrow i walk on

2008-05-26T08:53:00.002+08:00

It had been some time since I last walked on the rain. Not so nice cos my pants and shoes were almost wet. lol.

Such a good weather. Next time I will take leave to just stare at the rain blindly, thinking...

Should had take MC today cos 1 of my colleague was on MC. Shit. lol

I miss the rain. especially when it reminds ...

2008-05-25T21:26:00.002+08:00

Its pay day. Time to put my procrastination into actions. lol.

Bills to paid

H/P & Internet Bills - Average ($80), ($42), ($160)

($300)

Food - Average ($200)

Petrol - Average ($300)

Mum's Household Bills - Average ($700)

Deductions - $1500

Income after CPF deduction

xxx

To save 50% of my income this month and tat means LESS gambling. =.=

2008-05-23T23:39:00.001+08:00

Is it pure fate or pure coincidence. Or are our fate like Romeo and Juliet. lol.

Or is it really destined to be u........Wonders........Wonders..

2008-05-23T23:30:00.002+08:00

After so many days of cooling down, I understand yr fears. Lol. Why u nvr revealed to mi. U scared.lol. So I am. hmm, actually really not. Yea, maybe. but I dont think I will. cos I know . somehow.

Never mind, give u some more time. give myself some more time too. I think

Maybe I was 2 stressed up and a bit pissed off also. Maybe I thinking 2 way over the top. Maybe I overreacted too. I know how u feel for mi. But frankly,somehow my emotions always get over my head. Maybe I over-sensitive. But 1 thing u nid to know is u matter a lot to mi.

Like yr laughter damn so much...No matter how/what u done to mi, somehow I still always ,,,,,

Another depressing news, Another lead engineer resigned this week. lol. I guess some part of his work will be passed to mi. Damn, what should I do....

Somehow my heart always seem to think of u, I really wonder why. Someone tell mi why......Its so weird....tat feeling...You are always far, but close to my heart. Haiz...

2008-05-23T12:52:00.001+08:00

I hope u really meant wat u mean. Posted here wat u said " I promised I wont make u cry"

2008-05-23T00:11:00.002+08:00

I practically guessed something rite. US oil will go up, probably US150/barrel.

LONDON - Oil hit new peaks for a third straight day on Thursday, climbing to above $135 a barrel, before losing steam in response to a stronger dollar.

Erm, u got to be prudent. There will be a storm soon at US.

By that time, all will be affected. Especially U.

2008-05-22T19:48:00.003+08:00

I should stop reading yr stuff. The signals u are giving mi are so confusing. I wonder should I hate or love u.

I know I cant hate u watever u do....I can hate myself though.

2008-05-22T10:31:00.002+08:00

Slogging, working hard for nothing...haiz...

Maybe I shldnt had said...

2008-05-22T00:46:00.000+08:00

I so sick right now. Sian....

2008-05-22T00:26:00.003+08:00

Haiz. u probably wont understand and never will. I cant write wat I feel, I cant say wat I want. Haiz. I probably love u 2 much to say even.

I think I inherited my mum's traits. Haiz....I'm too soft-hearted.

In future, whatever u do, pls consider my position or me in your shoes...U probably don knw wat I had done for u, especially when my mum found out. lol. I probably screwed up by now.

What can I say more..... No one really considers my feelings. No one....

The clouds are so nice today.

2008-05-21T16:35:00.002+08:00

I doubt anyone understands mi. I suffering cos of u. Haiz.. I told u before.

2008-05-21T00:45:00.002+08:00

Plucking out my wisdom tooth. left mi w/o wisdom. lol
Fixing my back. Sux,it full of spots.damn.

Erm, u wouldnt believe it. I actually thought of u. Don't disappoint me. lol. Hope u wont feel disappointed also once I there. lol. I nt tat special=looking

2008-05-20T18:13:00.000+08:00

U such an idiot sometimes. =.=

2008-05-20T12:51:00.001+08:00

Sometimes have u wonder why there is 365 days in a yr and I only had 1.5days of rest per month. Lol.

No wonder I so tired everytime. lol.

U shd knw wat I wan to say .. xxxx x

2008-05-17T01:39:00.003+08:00

A lot of thoughts but dunno where to start from. lol.

Its easier to had multiple thoughts on your mind buts it so hard or difficult to put in words or say it out sometimes.

Erm, Frankly speaking.I don had any requirements. Maybe 1 - 2. but really I stop having expectations since my last job. lol.

Just let things take its own course from now on..... Seeing so many injured/dead at the china earthquakes makes one wonder why life is short...

Wish I can win a casino back. lol. Maybe I can win someone's heart too or had I won it already. Hahaha. U know hor. xD

See U Mon or tmr....or See me Winning at the SIngapore Turf Club for the SIA Challenge Gold Cup Race.hahaha.

Hmm, wonder when we can start betting on piggys race.lol

2008-05-16T10:07:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I wonder why I never get enough of u. Lol. U so damn cute. =.=

No wonder u so irresistable in some ways. If u were a choc, I will had gobbled u up

2008-05-14T21:20:00.003+08:00

It rained so heavy this morning. It was damn cooling and nice as I stood there staring blankly at the dark sky. As usual.

What a nice day today...and I damn tired today. Wonders why

2008-05-14T08:59:00.002+08:00

As like all organisations, it does not depend on how much u do but rather how much yr boss like u. lol

It starts to rain today , this morning. My pants are wet. lol.

So nice. I wish I was in bed now.

2008-05-12T01:51:00.002+08:00

Had a good time at the movies today. The show was touching. lol. Maybe I too silly. lol

Sorry, I was supposed to be here but somehow its the last game of the EPL season. I couldnt miss it.lol. Wat a match.lol.

Erm, I may not be as perfect as wat u thought, u know. So don think of mi as tat perfect. lol. The way u described mi sometimes really really flattered mi. :D

Idiot. xD

2008-05-08T17:56:00.002+08:00

For God so loved the world, that he give his forgotten son, that whoever believes in him, will not perished but will had everlasting life - John 5:32

? Is it correct

2008-05-08T17:35:00.002+08:00

One day u will understand. Sometimes I wish to say much but impending yr explosive nature, I had to hold back.

When u say u love someone, sooner or later, u had to consider his/her feelings. I know u trying very hard, I can see that.

I will try to understand. Wonder whether u can understand mi?

2008-05-08T09:57:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I felt that u are so cute....watching stars at nite. I can imagine tat, u knw. No wonder I so engrossed with u........Cute

2008-05-07T23:47:00.003+08:00

Sometimes when u earn too much,u tend to overspend. thats mi. =.=

I'm a idiot. I promised myself this month I will save 50% of my salary. I will pay myself 1st. Increased my mum's allowance to 700 due to increasing costs of rice and oil.

I got to work harder to find more $. lol.

2008-05-07T23:20:00.003+08:00

A lot of memories came back to me when I was driving back ytd due to some urgent work. So much, wanted to write down but couldnt do it last nite. Probably too stoned. lol

You know what, everything I do was for you. I will never hurt or bear to hurt you. Sometimes I think too much. But sometimes to think back, reality will bites back and that is when everything comes into picture. Pressure...and so on. I had stop thinking about what might happened and so on and so on. If not, I will had been crazy by now. lol

By that time, I really hope we can be together. If not, I nver regret knowing you. Really, it comes within my heart.

Sometimes to think back, we had really had so much in common as though we know each other since way back. Just hope everything will be ok.

I been saying to myself everyday. Once yr xxx is over, there are some trials i wan u to go through. Lol. Don be scared. I only wan u to experience what I had experienced before.

2nd part of yr year will be more challenging for u. Lol

2008-05-06T11:48:00.002+08:00

Wondering wat the future brings? Wondering should I say ?

Wondering wat I want?

Will u be back to yr usual self again when things are back to normal?

2008-05-04T02:10:00.001+08:00

Are dreams worth pursuing?

Bluewaters 2 , condominium by the sea.

When will it be mine? Haiz. I nid lots of $

2008-05-02T11:49:00.002+08:00

Sometimes do u look back and regret why u didnt follow yr instincts or say yes. lol. I know people must look ahead but sometimes we do unknowingly look back and regret why we missed the chance.

Wonder when will she call mi up ? Will I regret cos it is a lost opportunity or when the chance comes, will I regret I take it ? Life is so funny. The pasture always look greener on the other side. Once u step over, u might regret it or love it. That happens to life also.

Wish people had less expectations on me. lol. At least I can don had to think too much.lol. If only..

2008-04-30T13:41:00.002+08:00

It feels so nice to just KO with nice music on yr earpieces. Sometimes it is like u in another world, oblivous to the surroundings, unaware of whats happening around you, as it u in another world.

Too bad, it's so short.

Had I missed the opportunity to start a new environment? I should had agreed the interview when the lady called. Now I a bit regret. Will she agreed to call again or email me the details. Sian.

Sometimes I really don know what I wan. lol. A fat salary but pressurizing job or a slightly ok pay but sinking boat which I in now.

Life really is full of damn decisions to make. Will I make the wrong decision one day and regret someday? Wonders...

2008-04-26T11:40:00.004+08:00

So much things to buy. lol.

2 jeans
2 pants
2 hps? lol
2 running shorts?
more socks

So much things to do. lol

extract my wisdom tooth ...zzz. going to cry..zzz
revamp my back. lol. so many spots..i die..zzz
prepare if an interview is coming. going slot for next week at least

So many decisions to make. zzz

Someone give me an idea

Lol. Hmm, I getting a lot of attraction from babes recently. lol. Am I imaginative? I don't think I lack of suitors now. Hahaha. I think , piglet, u in trouble now. Hahaha

2008-04-24T22:22:00.002+08:00

Wanted post something but I saved it for future. lol.

Pretty babe. ^.^ and nice voice. omg. Angel. lol

Singer: Shania Twain
Song Title: You've Got A Way

You've got a way with me
Somehow you got me to believe in everything that I could be
I've gotta say - you really got a way

You've got a way it seems
You gave me faith to find my dreams
You'll never know just what that means
Can't you see...you got a way with me

Chorus:
It's in the way you want me
It's in the way you hold me
The way you show me just what love's made of
It's in the way we make love

You've got a way with words
You get me smiling even when it hurts
There's no way to measure what your love is worth
I can't believe the way you get through to me

(Chorus)

Bridge:
Oh, how I adore you
Like no one before you
I love you just the way you are

(Chorus)

It's just the way you are

2008-04-23T23:13:00.002+08:00

A worrying thought. Heard from mum that a gasoline tank now costs over $50 =.=

Pls the recent news.

SINGAPORE: Singapore’s annual inflation was 6.7 percent last month, the highest in 26 years, the Department of Statistics said on Wednesday.

It said the consumer price index was boosted by higher costs of food, transport, communications and housing.

The March consumer price index figure was down 0.1 percent from February’s figure, the department added.

On a seasonally adjusted basis, the index was 0.3 percent higher in March, compared with the previous month.

Inflation reached 6.6 percent in the first three months of 2008, compared with the same period last year.

Singapore is not alone in grappling with inflation.

The United Nations food agency on Tuesday said the world faces a "silent tsunami" of soaring food prices and more must be done to help secure future supply.

Rising food prices are driving more people in Singapore to join the queue for free meals, charities said.

Crude oil is also trading at near record high prices globally.

Wonder how my piglet is coping?

2008-04-23T09:23:00.001+08:00

Some people are born with good life. They had nothing much to do. LOL, in front is one colleague I can see looking around here and there feeling bored. lol

I had too many tasks in hand, don know which to start at. Lol. I start with blogging 1st. lol.

Then a few tasks to end my day. lol.

2008-04-22T23:06:00.001+08:00

LONDON (AFP) - - The price of New York crude rocketed to a record high point of 118.05 dollars per barrel on Tuesday, lifted by unrest in Nigeria, weakness of the dollar and OPEC's reluctance to raise short-term output.

Thats a worrying though, For sure, I been expecting that, the US economy is going to recession soon.

2008-04-22T22:50:00.003+08:00

I know we under pressure now. lol. Thats y I dowan to give u more. Erm, don worry. Things will take care of themselves. Thats what people say. lol.

Sometimes I wish we were a bit maturer and stronger. lol. Then, I don had to worry much. lol.

I also got a lot of things on my mind, but I stop worrying for now, especially when I read about people unexpectedly die in accidents or watever.

No-one knows what going to happen in the future, thats for sure. No matter what good or bad, we had to live on. lol. Easier to say , hard to practice. I know.

2008-04-22T22:39:00.002+08:00

The beach tonite was so nice. I like the weekdays, just a sight of a few people and several jogglers running. No noise, no much laughter, simply the sounds of the wave.

I like sitting near the cliff, staring at the clouds, watching the waves crashing on the rocks. Occasionally, could see a few sights of the airplanes breaking from the clouds. The sights of the lights of the ships at the far distance and occasionally a few people walking at the beach.

The only thing missing was someone beside me. lol.

Nevermind, sometimes its just nice to be alone thinking .....

2008-04-21T12:09:00.002+08:00

I think i pretty gone crazy. lol. Here I am sick but feeling happy. lol. Who on earth spend $ to see doctor and yet feel happy. Only me. I a weirdo. lol.

Maybe cos I avoiding something. Running from Monday blues, running from the enormous work I know I will face on Monday, running from the hidden problems that I will find out, just plain running away.lol.

Glad I took a rest today. I badly needed recharged and I don thnk anyone will appreciate, especially my boss. lol. I rmbr I was reading email and typing out msgs and remote-supporting even when I was sick last few months ago. lol. Idiot, rite , or am I too responsible. lol.

And Oh Sux, bills are up again. Heard from mom cooking oil had cost $6.90 per bottle from $4.70 1 week ago. Wow...And I didnt know it affect medicine also. WTH had oil do with medicine? Today cost me $44, can only remiburse $25. The rest of the $17 i treat it as paying $ from my pockets to be off today. lol. Worth it for a day rest? lol. I wonder? Should be bah. lol.

2008-04-21T01:00:00.003+08:00

So much things on mind now. lol. Been coughing drastically. If tmr still coughing, probably i might take an urgent day or 1/2 day off to c a doctor. Health more impt, at most jobless. lol .. =.=

Thats wht u afraid hor. lol

Dont worry, for the time being, I still useful. At least for now on....lol unless boss go xrazy and start firing. lol. Hmmm, who knows.

Shld stop drinking cold water from now on. and probably stop my jogging for the time being. Hadnt jog since fri .lol....

Hmm, at least something is more encouraging along the way...payday...lol...Got to save some..in case...u know..lol

Consistent cough plus low morale really does'nt help in the current situation. What shld I do?

2008-04-21T00:46:00.003+08:00

Sux,,, I coughing so badly I wonder how I can sleep. I should had known that when I gobbled up that chocholate crunch ice-cream. zzz .. SO tempting

Am I purposely making myself sick so that I can be excused tomorrow. Wonder why. lol. Or the temptation too strong.lol.

2008-04-21T00:29:00.002+08:00

I wonder why we had so much in common sometimes. lol. Whatever u experiencing I was experiencing too but was a different case. lol. Is heaven making fun of we two, sometimes, or are we two built to be an item? lol.

Sometimes when I feel so down I had to be strong cos when I see u so weak, I don feel that feeling to say to u I weak. lol. You don know how much I need u tonite. Thnks, u were here. lol.

2008-04-20T23:34:00.002+08:00

If only u here tonite, you probably be mine. lol.

or is It the reverse? lol

Who knows. If what u said to me is true....

2008-04-20T02:28:00.002+08:00

Hmm, I wonder why I eat the medi not feeling sleepy . lol.

I wonder why I am born in this world? lol. xD

The clouds at the beach tonite reminded me of an image of an spaceship.

2008-04-19T19:47:00.000+08:00

This home doesn't look like a home sometimes . lol. Pretty annonying. lol.

2008-04-19T18:11:00.001+08:00

I trying to blog but I dont think I can think properly. lol. I coughing like mad. Maybe its my end soon.lol. just joking. Got to rest.

2008-04-17T23:24:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I feel I'm a bit crazy. Lol. I do things by the heart rather than my logical thinking. I wonder if I thinking too much or wat. When the day comes, please trust me no-matter wat. lol. I wonder if I trust u too much.

Sometimes I wish I was born rich with a silver spoon as what the saying said. Anyway, its not possible. lol.

Just saw the news

rice in thailand had shot up another 10-20%. Thats bad news for the poor...zzz
Oil had shot up over 115 per barrel. Thats another bad news
Sing dollar suprising had appreciated so much. Wow. that unexpected news

2008-04-16T23:23:00.001+08:00

I guess u pretty asleep by now. lol. Must had eat medi and slept hor. lol..

Nearly wan txt u but I think it is a bit late..lol..nm..next time i try earlier when I not jogging..Anyway net is down again. Sux..lol

2008-04-16T19:54:00.001+08:00

Ah sux. my bloody internet line is down again. Sucky Singnet...what happened to the cable below....Arrgggg...

Got to make tat damn call again..Wonder how long will I be able to contact them again

I going cancel this bloody lousy line...Sxxx them...lol

Seems going to rain or does it not..o.o

Anyway, cough still hadnt recovered...

2008-04-15T23:15:00.003+08:00

Recent events had been on my mind

Increase in rice prices around the world. Especially affected are the neighbouring countries like indonesia and philippines. Thats' a worrying sign....Not only rice prices are increasing, certain commodities like beans, coffee, essential items to the common people are rising..
Increase in oil prices making the world financial markets jittery, and that means 1 thing - recession in US coming soon. Prepared for the worst cos recession in US will had a repercussion around the world.
Of cos, yr state..lol..You should know what I implying...don't had to say much then
The rest are insigificant as compared to the top 3 above....lol...like colleagues resigning..blar blar blar..pressure increasing....sort of....money not enough lar...blar blar blar....problems at work here and there....lol

Seems that Singapore is not yet affected by the current turmoil around the world yet.......from what I seen at east coast last sat...

As the saying said " Things will had a beginning and an end"

2008-04-14T22:52:00.002+08:00

I know, I know, by this time , I should be sleeping...lol.

There's seems a lot of jobs around nowadays. lol...

Wonder what should I be looking for? Job with higher pay and more stress or my current one with lesser pay but not so much stress. It took me a while to understand how my current job works... I smart sia. lol. whether it comes with computers.. lol

Feeling lethargic now...

2008-04-14T22:15:00.002+08:00

I hate to make decisions sometimes. Decisions I make that will influence my life. lol.. Wonder wat will be my future?

I hate this medi I taking. Starts to take effect 2hrs later and it is making me damn blur now..OMG.... I bet I will KO anytime from now on...lol...

Wonder I shld start looking for a new job now...lol.. When can I not running around...lol....

But at least my health is recovering....Its always good to have almost 85% of health back. Imagine the worst when I was restless and sick since ytd morning.....

Almost slept the whole day today..Due to the medi....Wonder why I felt that something is amiss.

Must be the damn medi making mi think nonsense..lol

Should be KO anytime from now onwards..

2008-04-13T14:09:00.004+08:00

Hahaha. My internet is up today since it was down since Tues. One of the cable lines was faulty according to the SingTel technician.

I think the most happy is my sis cos she can play MAPLE whole day wor. Lol. Pig...

Tasteless stupid stingray - nt nice to eat.. I wont go to tat stupid restauarant...lousy...

The net is up but I down with a slight sore-throat. Lol. Don worry, eat medi will be fine. I always been fit de. xD

2008-04-11T17:53:00.001+08:00

You such a nice gal. lol......Even you might act stubborn ......most of the time...

2008-04-11T17:50:00.001+08:00

I realize most people in the world are either fretting over 2 things. Its either

love
or
$

LOL......

Today's a great Day....xD..for jogging..

2008-04-11T12:53:00.002+08:00

Sometimes people do feel lost, mood swing.....Wat do you do? Broke down and cry and just carry on as per normal.....

Guess we only humans ...lol..

Cry and forget the past...Live the present, thats more important.

Geezz, Going be weekend soon. Lol...My barqueue stingray coming ...lol.

2008-04-11T11:36:00.002+08:00

Had you ever wondered like you lost somewhere? I do sometimes. lol.

Feeling sleepy after a rainy morning. Had been raining since start of the month and jams always when I go home. Tat sux

Had been wandering in space since morning.. =.=

2008-04-10T22:06:00.002+08:00

This Bloody ISP of mine. I gonna CANCEL the contract if it find it expires soon. I going switch to STARHUB for free goodies - NEW xbox 360 or new TV..LOL..if only I can..zzz

STOP eating...just finished half a tall can of potato chips.xD
No internet to utilize since it rained on Tues...Who going pay for my LOSSES>>..idiotic SIngnet
Will I be moving out Soon? Lol..
My hair is going thinner..omg...zzz
Relaxing more nowadays...Got to find a new job soon...More people are leaving..omg
I wan eat barqueue STING-ray this weekend.. XD
I wan go spa , treat my damn back..Its littered with so many dots .omg...pimples...zzz

2008-04-08T23:19:00.002+08:00

There's one song I put as my ring tone on my HP

One Republic - Stop and Stare

There's a particular part I luv especially.

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare

I start to wonder why you're not here but there 
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need

2008-04-08T23:17:00.001+08:00

Singer: MotorCycle
SongTitle: As the Rush Comes

There's a coldness in the air
but i don't care....
(Embrace me...surround me)

Travelling somewhere
could be anywhere
there's a coldness in the air
but i don't care
we drift deeper
life goes on
we drift deeper
into the sound

(Embrace me...surround me.. as the rush..)

Travelling somewhere
could be anywhere
there's a coldness in the air
yeah but i don't care
we drift deeper into the song
life goes on
we drift deeper into the sound
feeling strong

so bring it on so bring it onnnn
we drift deeper into the song
life goes on
we drift deeper into the sound
feeling strong
so bring it on so bring it onnnn
we drift deeper........

we drift deeper life goes on
we drift deeper drift deeper
we drift deeper into the song
life goes on
we drift deeper into the sound
feeling strong
so bring it on so bring it onnnn
we drift deeper into the song
life goes on
we drift deeper into the sound
feeling strong
so bring it on so bring it onnnn

embrace me .. surround me
as the rush comes [ x 8 ]

as the rush comes
as the rush comes
as the rush comes...

2008-04-08T23:10:00.001+08:00

I forgot to post something ytd.

After jogging, I sat down on the beach ytd. There were 2 HUGE signs - 1 was a LOVE sign ..2nd was a MUSIC note..So coincidentally..

Unconsciously, I drew a small LUV sign on the sand...

2008-04-08T23:02:00.002+08:00

A nice REBEL song to cool my head. lol...

Hmm Kelly Clarkson looks cute also. LOL...a bit plump though..lol...

2008-04-08T22:47:00.001+08:00

Singer: Kelly Clarkson
Song Title: Breakaway

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreamin' of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could break away

[chorus]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get on board a fast train
Travel on a jetplane, far away
And break away

[chorus]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won't forget all the ones that I love
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me
But, gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, break away

[chorus 2]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye, gotta
Take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget of the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away

Breakaway
Breakaway

2008-04-08T22:39:00.002+08:00

I think I need to go for anger MANAGEMENT course. STUPID ISP

My damn Internet is down, oh great. Called this HOtlineSupport SINGNET line and it took me 2 times and a DAMN 10-15mins wait and all it was at the other end "TY for calling the support line. All of our technical support are engaged at the moment...." WTH

Plus my SIS damn NOTEBOOK mouse and mousepad is not working. Even PISS me off de...WTH...Lousy Notebook. Had it replaced for goodness SAKE, sis

I think I under great stressNOW. Added another fact 1 of our lead engineer had just tendered today. Oh great. 3 resignations from our department in a singleMOnth...Oh great...wat a "MORALE booster"...Plus the fact I thinking of the shit work I might get added when he leaves.....zzzz.....Wat an unexpected Month this is...

Now what I need is A HUG now..LOL....Oh great.....

Can someone save me from my MISERY now....zzz..I think I going CRAZY SOON.......

2008-04-07T18:17:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wonder whether you are strong enough to withstand what might happened in the future.

No one knows the future, you know. Lol.

We shall see when the time comes...It was'nt easy for us and I know it wont be easy in future for us too. In fact, to think of that, we hadnt started. lol. The real one.

Living together is sometimes so much different........

2008-04-06T23:05:00.002+08:00

I always enjoyed talking to my mum and sis on property at sun nite. lol. We will always argue where to buy.... lol

Hmmm...I always told them I wanted to buy a condomium at Pasir Ris cos its near the beach. My sister will say I xiao.. x(

One day...lol..

2008-04-06T21:00:00.002+08:00

SG education system is failing. I hate those couples who behaved like brats. lol.

I was having dinner at this coffee shop. In-front of me was this young bf and gf sort of. Both looks educated, at least the way they talk. This gal was also quite cute and pretty de. lol. Heavily make up to compensate her young age. This guy was nt bad looking.

The area was the non-smoking zone and there was a few kids arnd the table. On the wall was pasted this LARGE poster of "NOT SMOKING HERE" I wonder whether they had noticed it or nt cos they whipped out a cigarette and started smoking. WTF. Arent the various posters LARGE enough for these 2 BRATs to SEE or are they simplying IGNORING IT. Arent the education system supposed to teach the young so called country pillars of these and not chasing fame and $ in this rat-race world. . Haiz

They must had look embarassed cos I was like staring at them and looking at the posters on top of me. They smoked quickly. Haiz. irregardless whether u had studied or nt, the so called educated doesnt fit into them. Whether u are so called looked impressive or pretty, so wat. this so called pretty brat really disguise me

Our education system is really failing.

2008-04-06T15:31:00.003+08:00

You such a cute and interesting gal. Lol. If we had known much much earlier, you wouldnt had suffered. Lol. I know sometimes it is impossible cos of our ...lol..u knw wat..

There are so much obstacles between us , you know, wonder when that day comes, will u be prepared. lol.

Anyway, let things happened at its own course bah. Its too early to say all these when it hadnt happened.

Lol.

God , please guide me..lol

2008-04-06T13:11:00.002+08:00

I realized I only human after all. I had my needs and emotions sometimes. I getting mood swings recently. Lol.

I think i going crazy again due to the weather again. lol.

Stop thinking. ...

2008-04-05T17:45:00.002+08:00

Went to east coast to have my lunch. Doesnt seem the country is like in recession leh. lol.

The waters was damn blue leh. lol. Was blazing hot also. And then 5pm. it started raining cats and dogs. Wat a downpour. lol.

Wat an unpredicatable weather.

Read about the sudden food shortage in india, indonesia, china, philippines etc in the newspapers.. Hmmm. poor things..

Everyone cutting down on expenditure as prices goes up...Hmmm...

Dont worry,things will get better. lol..

2008-04-05T12:17:00.002+08:00

I need to get more jeans and pants. I pretty left with 2 jeans, actually 1. lol . I just bought 1 size 28 last week. Still tight..zz. So means I left with 1 jean and few pretty loose jeans. Same with my pants. lol.

Nowadays. I seldom feel like staying home at weekends. lol .unless its pouring.

Today is a big match between Arsenal and Liverpool.

Sun, hopefully , will be going to Turf Club with my dad at Kranji. lol . Geezz. I never been there up to now. What a loser. 1st time experience,definitely need to had an eye-opener.

Things get pretty busier on weekend nowadays. Lol

2008-04-05T12:04:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I feel bad when I not there with you. Lol. If you were here. things will had been differently. Lol. Never mind, lets see how things will go. If I were there, you probably will had hugged me all day by now. Lol.

I being selfish , rite. lol. Yep,I am. Anyway, once things are fine for yr side, we discuss further. No point worrying all this. lol.

Just be there for me now and hopefully be strong for me, no matter wat and hopefully u can be with me if I ever need you.