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James.

1226.

LOVES
**Family &
**Juris, MYMP &
**Music, Bowling &
**Seaside &
**Rain

HATES
**Work &
**Argue &
**People who use mi
**People who distrust mi

WISH
**Turn back the clock (I don't think it is possible anymore) &
**Retire Now in remote Carribean Island with Lovely Seaside and Music &
**My Bowling ball &
**Visit Tash, MS and Apple &
**Stop being so soft-hearted

sidekicks
Tash

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Monday, March 31, 2008

I got to stick to my targets. Been procrastinating...zz .. Else I wont achieve them this year
  • Save 75% of my salary - 15% goes to my mum household.... 10% goes to miscellanous - junks...lol
  • Buy a new car -Mitsubishi or Mazda xD when the COE goes down further..
  • Bring down my weight further ...zzz
  • Find a new job that pays higher
  • Relax and think lesser
  • Buy a new property...tats way 2 far ahead//// unless i get paid more
  • Save MORE and gamble lesser..lol
  • Work lesser..lol
And the medi is damn strong...lol....Been fighting the sleepiness for 2hrs...lol......Guess I won fight it further....


10:32 PM


Music makes the people
come together.

Sunday, March 30, 2008

My niece is very funny. She actually on Korean love drama to watch..wth...

These kind of shows...zzzzzzzz

In front of me..

Its so funny when you see the gal behaving so idiotic..lol...so like ...


10:31 PM


Music makes the people
come together.

You know, you been appearing when I asleep. lol.. That had been twice bah, if I not wrong.

I know its pretty hard but I glad u become sensible. lol...Tat what makes you attractive, you don know huh...

Just hope you will stand by me when the day comes. lol..


7:49 PM


Music makes the people
come together.

I should had stayed at home...lol.. Went fishing and some people there thought I was an expert. o.o

lol..I did had some fun..bored...lol..but caught 2 prawns.. ..1 lobster climbed out of the net..wth..how did it knw how to escape.. strange...lol...Talked with a small boy and he was so interesting..

Wonder will I go again.. hmmm....

I behaving so abnormally these few days... =.=

Where's my jogging..zzz ...


2:27 AM


Music makes the people
come together.

From young, I always believe people easily. lol. Up to now..lol.. Mum never taught me not to distrust..lol.
Thats why I suffered whenever I worked in some place. I didnt expect people to lie..people to cheat..people unscrupulous..lol..and they can still got the cheeks to survive....Naive . I must said..

Some people said I tend to believe too easily...hmmm.. I do..I usually dont keep guard of people...lol..Stupid rite..So whenever I found out they lie to me. I feel hurt easily..lol..

Now I dont believe people easily now..lol..Only some....and I hope my judgment is right sometimes. People are really harder to understand than machines..


2:19 AM


Music makes the people
come together.

Saturday, March 29, 2008

Hmm, you know I do trust you a lot......

Anyway will be out fishing...lol


3:31 PM


Music makes the people
come together.

Friday, March 28, 2008

Back to the real world..Lol...

I just wished you will get what u want. If there is a 1 and only wish in the world. your wish is my wish. lol..

Hope you get it...pls......If only there were a shooting star tonite..=.= and if there exists genies..lol

May God answer my prayer..


12:11 AM


Music makes the people
come together.

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Today got to be one of my lucky day, thats how I felt it. Not that I won 4D or Toto or anything like that, although that will cheer me too but strangely today, 2 events cheer me up.. XD...

1) You came unexpectedly when the least I expected you. That really cheer me up..Usually I will expect u to be around and turned to disappoint when u didn't. Tat was so precious to me , do you know..How u been, how u faring, all the stuff about you. I just want to know...lol..Crazy hor...lol...but thats nothing in the world ,that will interest me but you..lol...I mean how u spend yr day and so on.that could go days if I will to continue..better not...lol..

Anyway, thanks..I knw its currently hard on you now but do tell me if you cant handle it....I know u cant sometimes ....who can under that situation..me neither if I am...lol..We only humans but do let God decide.

2) It didnt rain today. lol. So guess where I went.....Beach.....Horray...to jog again...Geezz..I must be eating a lot..I cant run todays. zzz.. Stop 5-6 times just when I started..lol.. All the tibits after dinner really make me so lethargic...lol..Guess what..I took a kit-kat again after dinner..lol..This bad habit got to stop..becoming like pigs...lol...

After jogging back, I went and sat down on the beach. Guess what..Usually I will sit down and just gaze at the sea..the lights of the boats and tankers far away at the deep sea..Today , I did differently. I took off my shirt and placed it down on the sort-of wet sand and I lie down and gaze the dark sky. LOL....The sky was littered with a few stars scattered around, could hear sounds of people laughing at the far distant, sounds of waves crashing at the shore. I just dazed and stared at the sky...thinking nothing..All my troubles were suddenly thrown away. No handphones with me..no calls...just plain quietness. like I was in my own world..LoL..Tats really nice.. Actually , not really nothing. LOL..I imagined xx were just beside me , lying down with 1 hand placed on my shoulder..lol..Tats all...planting a kiss..lol...Really funny..Then, I didnt imagine further..Lol..

Thnks for the Sky today...and the nice beach..LOL.




11:48 PM


Music makes the people
come together.

Hmmm, I want to post 2 posts before I go back to my books. lol.. strange hor..suddenly w/o you. i turning to books... Read if you want to know what the 2 posts are about.....lol..

1 is today activities...2 is for you...


11:46 PM


Music makes the people
come together.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

You know u the one who really understand me. lol...Yr laughter. yr sorrow never fails to touched me...Your idiotic brains..lol

You the one who showed so much concern for me..I just want to say thanks to u very much..and much more..


11:40 PM


Music makes the people
come together.

There's one thing you didnt know. I used to re-read all these messages u talk to me..lol..xrazy huh u must been thinking...

I think you the only one who really can make my spirits high..in-spite of all the unhappiness...

There's one thing I want to do for you now.. Pray for yr current situation. Thats only I can do rite now..Haiz..and I think there's the thing u will accept..Diao

I will rather sacrifice anything if yr current situation improves. That means even agreeing to shorten my life-span .lol..Not hard to request that.

If only I were rich...........Sian...


10:49 PM


Music makes the people
come together.

Its so funny. U always in when it is raining. When it is not raining,u nt here. lol.

Geezz,, miss the beach.. Clouds look cloudy..


7:57 PM


Music makes the people
come together.

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

I hope the girl dont misunderstood I am interested in her..lol..so paisei..

cos seeing her can Only reminds of you......


10:45 PM


Music makes the people
come together.

I think I suffering from depression. lol. I think, hopefully its not.
Maybe its pure work alone that causes mi to damn tired cos I KO when I slept in the noon and when I reached home. Was a short nap though...Or maybe its cos of too much thinking. I thought I can handle it well. but apparently I human too. wth..

Got to hang on there. really need to..so do u...Its u who keep mi going on, rmbr.....so you got to do that also. Rmbr that. I know u can....Just believe u can...cos I believe u can and similarly I know u believe I can...I just plainly hanging on with my teeth.

My pressure is even worse. I handling 5 people job now single-handle, and I just barely reached 1yr + in my new work place. Boss think I can handle more...wth...Time to make an end soon...lol..i bidding my time

Took some cough medicine so that I can sleep better. Seems cough medicine don had any effect on me on now. lol.

Wonder how u getting on? As long I know u living well.I satisified. Its' been some days since we really get together and had a good talk. Really long, in a sense , u know. lol. And these words I been saying for so many times to u,..... I xx xx ,,,

Sometimes its good to be separated for a while...I know sometimes I dont meant that but really, been doing some thinking...did none..but at least this is a trial...and thus we should cherish more



10:26 PM


Music makes the people
come together.

Everytime I will without hesitantly turned around and look at the girl, and it will remind of you. zzz




5:47 PM


Music makes the people
come together.

Monday, March 24, 2008

Sometimes Fate like to disturb people. Mine especially. Was raining VERY heavy from 6pm onwards. Why it had to rain when I was going back. I sent 2 lady colleagues to the MRT station. Dont get me wrong. =.= . One was not bad looking. lol .but as usual I wasnt interested. lol. Wonders why...zzz

Caught in a jam around my work area for an hour. That shows how bad it was.
I do like rain very much but somehow twice I missed. You should know what I was implying. Geezz.. One was Sat 3pm, i took a nap. was raining so heavy. Today I missed it cos I reached home at 8pm. =.= 2hrs ride from work. Got a 7th sense you might be there. somehow, when I was bathing. Should had trust my instinct.

I really need some luck nowadays. Its like playing the jackpot nowadays guessing when you. zzz. I had so much in my mind but as usual, I cant write.


11:31 PM


Music makes the people
come together.

I feel so sucky this morning. lol.

Zzz.....Mood doesnt seem good and spirits doesnt seem to be high now. Maybe I need a change of surroundings. lol.

Bored.

Feel regret I slept on Sat afternoon 3pm when it was raining. zzz


8:57 AM


Music makes the people
come together.

You know I so contradicting myself sometimes. I rather I dont had to subject to this kind of test. lol.

I know I got to be strong, sometimes I dont know why I feeling that way. Emotional ..lol. Geezz

Wonder how u been getting on these few days.


12:20 AM


Music makes the people
come together.

Sunday, March 23, 2008

You know as I writing this, I eating peanuts. lol.

U smart, so u should guess some of the lyrics are for you. Dont think negatively. And I also xx xx. It feels strange w/o you. Maybe thats' what God is testing us. lol.

 This town is colder now
I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move
I'm shakin' off the rust
I've got my heart set
on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands just take the wheel
Every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving, but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Ohhh

Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can you see what I see

They're tryin' to come back, all my senses push
Untie the weight bags I never thought I could
Steady feet don't fail me now,
I'm a run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out, and I'm standing down.

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone get scared
But I've become what I can't be
Whoa!!!
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone get scared
I've become what I can't be
Oh, do you see what I see?


5:15 PM


Music makes the people
come together.

Things had been going strange, at least abnormal since you gone. lol.

I had been eating tibits after dinner. Been eating a lot. Ever since March had been raining, the last jog I went was once last week. lol. Thats really strange. Last time w/o fail. I will jog everyday. Almost drop but then suddenly stay stagnant for a while. Dont worry, my weight is still under control.

I been spending a lot too. lol. Suddenly things tend to spiral out of control. You understand. Its so strange. You know I rather be spending the time with you than all these things. Its just to make me more busy a while. so that I wont think nonsense. lol. And u should know ...

Life's strange when things go unexpected. I really don know what the hell I been doing the past few days. Really....


2:13 AM


Music makes the people
come together.

Saturday, March 22, 2008

XX To You

You know, there are so many things I want to say to u but I can't. =.=
There are so many things I wan to write but I cant. Its hard u know. I really didnt expect it. lol. I practically struggling w/o you. If u understand...... I just hope you are xx

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XX To my friend XX
From young, I'm always forced to do things I dont like., work for e.g ..lol.. Practically I don like work but work just can occupy my mind for now. Music can flood my brains, work can tire my mind, but my soul is .....
I may look strong outside but many times I am vulnerable. I stubborn also. I don quite easily accept people's help or advice. I just bear my teeth and struggle on. I ignored them. Inside, my heart pleads ..
I always thought when people ask me for help, I should. I can throw away what I am doing and so called go all my way to help them. In the end, I realised no-one is helping me.

Maybe I simply just 2 nice. Sometimes people realised that as my weakness and abuse it. They call themselves friends. Ha. Hypocrites. Now, then I realise .. after so many years. I wonder why can such people exist. Dont' they feel guilty when they say such words and pretend that they are saints. LIES.. HYPROCRITES... U don look ugly but yr heart makes mi sick. Very often, I ignored yr selfish acts and thoughts u know.
Are such people really worthy to be called my friends...Haiz..

No more, to those who had abused it, I had enough. I'm sick . Once gone is gone. I only hope that I can be truely hard-hearted when I said that. Many times, I still cared but many times u just abuse it. You know pretty well how I treat u but u simply abuse it... You said you were acting fierce to protect yrself from people bullying u, especially me when you know deep inside , I never hurt or harm u at all. That hurts u know and I know you do know u hurt me but u never really apologize or call me to say u sorry.

Hopefully No more. This is the last time. I don really bothered now. The so called friendship which I treasured is gone. Its' hard but I will tried to forget this friendship which I always treasured. I always treat you as my little sis. Now I don think I will.






12:12 AM


Music makes the people
come together.

Friday, March 21, 2008

No matter what happened. just stay strong.

To all , me and you especially


1:27 PM


Music makes the people
come together.

Thursday, March 20, 2008

You know every now and then, I will -- -- --

Happy Easter Day and thanks for Jesus resurrection.


6:39 PM


Music makes the people
come together.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

I need to love myself more. lol.

Was so angry with my ex-colleague but now a bit cool-off. Wanted to write so many things to blast him. Hmmm. Maybe later. lol.

Wonder why do such people exist in the world. Dont they had any guilt or what? =.=


1:30 PM


Music makes the people
come together.

Was feeling sleepy at 12am then suddenly i feel so refreshed. =.=

My niece forced me to read 2 storybooks to her. =.=

Kind of unwillingly but anyway I did. One storybook was about the princess snowhite. lol.

Hmm, I discovered more names though

  • princess belle
  • princess snowwhite
  • princess jasmine
  • princess aurora
  • princess ----
  • princess ----
zzz I forgot the 2names more.


1:07 AM


Music makes the people
come together.

Monday, March 17, 2008

Isn't it time to stop torturing me.

Today, Apple promised me to bring her to genting on 911. Her 21st birthday.

I Guess, in 2008, there are some trips I had to make .

Got to stop gambling and start saving.


10:33 PM


Music makes the people
come together.

I went for a jog today. The weather was nice so I took the opportunity. March had been a raining season.

Somehow I managed to complete the whole path w/o stopping. Something was urging me on. I keep telling myself once I reached the end of the path, my wish will come true. In the end, I didn't stop. I keep pushing and pushing till I reached the end. Geez, I was glad. Somehow I wasn't even tired.

As usual, I jogged back and reached the beach, sat down alone and watched the waves crashing at the beach. The stars as usual shined so brightly on the sky. The waves were strong. Guess why I liked the beach? No-one knows. lol

Perseverance was the keyword. No matter how hard the path is, if u perserve, in the end u will succeed. Similarly, that applies to that 4 letter word. I knew if I perserve, no matter how tiring and tedious the path, no matter how much hardships I foresee , no matter how pain the sorrows, in the end, you will come back to me and all will be worth it.

I will never regret. I just hope one day you will understand, if u really could. Guess, 3 tests had been sufficient for me.


10:14 PM


Music makes the people
come together.

Today I dreamt of you twice. lol.

And this damn company standby phone. Woke me up at 350am ..zzzz

Feeling damn tired.


8:44 AM


Music makes the people
come together.

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Tonight, I Went to the paradize centre watch soccer. Crowded as usual. Left at about 1am. As I was heading to the car park,I heard a scream. Took a peek and saw a guy like hugging a bar hostess. lol. Hugging so tight.

Hmm, Keeps mi wondering. I must one of the rare species who doesnt like that. lol. Or is cos the events when I was young. lol. I just had to learn to grow bad one day. lol

And Yes I do need plenty of luck. Damn.




3:09 AM


Music makes the people
come together.

Saturday, March 15, 2008

I just need plenty of luck.


1:11 PM


Music makes the people
come together.

Friday, March 14, 2008

After so many years in the corporate world, I realised most people are selfish in nature. lol. 99.9% are.

Some friends are also not really called friends. Its just they are there. Hypocrites in nature.


8:55 AM


Music makes the people
come together.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

I just want to say "Thanks a lot". I really appreciate the things xx done or words u say to me irregardless. The sacrifices which u done and didn't mentioned. I already knew it way before you said it.

There's really no one in the world like xx. Really.. Its really what I felt deep inside.

One day.........Just one day.......

Day after day, I just begin to xx xx xx xx with you.






10:40 PM


Music makes the people
come together.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Its' been raining whole day and my mind starts to wonder... . Geez..it feels cold...And I hadnt been jogging since Sat.. :(

Weight hadnt gone down de..zzz.. Been eating 3 meals for the past 2 days. zzz

And plus my left ear seems to be not hearing very good recently. :(

That's great plus today I saw my name under some more work column. zzz

When can I be a BILLIONAIRE!!!!!!!!

Life Sux!!




10:08 PM


Music makes the people
come together.

Feeling crappy and it is raining

Dreaming of you again. Sux.


4:43 PM


Music makes the people
come together.

Monday, March 10, 2008

Geez, I can't sleep. I see people around mi and everyone seems to be surfing the net while I busy working. zzzz

I nid some pills to sleep.maybe cough medicine. lol.

Hmmm...Got to work at midnight tomorrow again. =.=

Wonder How long can I last? Is it time to find a new job..


11:08 PM


Music makes the people
come together.

Saturday, March 8, 2008

I wish everything will be fine between u and me.

I wish u were here with me.

I wish everything is just fine.


2:22 PM


Music makes the people
come together.

Monday, March 3, 2008

My old illness came back again - so painful..but not as torturing as mental

Geeze, I fell sick today. Mentally so tired due to the gigantic trash of workload left by some pple. haiz..


11:43 AM


Music makes the people
come together.




Music for Dec 2008

** 1. ATB - Collides with beauty**

** 2. Diana Krall - Have yourself a merry Xmas**
Collides with Beauty - ATB

Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas - Diana Krall


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