XX To You
You know, there are so many things I want to say to u but I can't. =.=
There are so many things I wan to write but I cant. Its hard u know. I really didnt expect it. lol. I practically struggling w/o you. If u understand...... I just hope you are xx
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XX To my friend XX
From young, I'm always forced to do things I dont like., work for e.g ..lol.. Practically I don like work but work just can occupy my mind for now. Music can flood my brains, work can tire my mind, but my soul is .....
I may look strong outside but many times I am vulnerable. I stubborn also. I don quite easily accept people's help or advice. I just bear my teeth and struggle on. I ignored them. Inside, my heart pleads ..
I always thought when people ask me for help, I should. I can throw away what I am doing and so called go all my way to help them. In the end, I realised no-one is helping me.
Maybe I simply just 2 nice. Sometimes people realised that as my weakness and abuse it. They call themselves friends. Ha. Hypocrites. Now, then I realise .. after so many years. I wonder why can such people exist. Dont' they feel guilty when they say such words and pretend that they are saints. LIES.. HYPROCRITES... U don look ugly but yr heart makes mi sick. Very often, I ignored yr selfish acts and thoughts u know.
Are such people really worthy to be called my friends...Haiz..
No more, to those who had abused it, I had enough. I'm sick . Once gone is gone. I only hope that I can be truely hard-hearted when I said that. Many times, I still cared but many times u just abuse it. You know pretty well how I treat u but u simply abuse it... You said you were acting fierce to protect yrself from people bullying u, especially me when you know deep inside , I never hurt or harm u at all. That hurts u know and I know you do know u hurt me but u never really apologize or call me to say u sorry.
Hopefully No more. This is the last time. I don really bothered now. The so called friendship which I treasured is gone. Its' hard but I will tried to forget this friendship which I always treasured. I always treat you as my little sis. Now I don think I will.
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